these days

My 2008

January:
- Began my first year without college :(
- "retired" from Starbucks, after about 3 years of service. Began full time with Life Counseling Center as the front receptionist.
- Our nephew was born
- 9 days later, Johnny's father passed away unexpectedly.

March:
- Seventh stars final shows
- bridal shower a.k.a one of my favorite times in my life
- I turned 23

April:
- 2 weeks before my wedding I was hired as an Associate Manager of Special Events and Fund-raising with the American Diabetes Association a.k.a the place I dreamed of working.
- I GOT MARRIED- April 19th! We went to Lake Tahoe for our honeymoon and I miss it so much!
- Came home and started my new job

October:
- Bought a house
- Bought a car
- became overwhelmed by how materialistic the world is

November:
Step Out: Walk to Fight Diabetes- the major event I spend the majority of my time working on happen on Nov. 8

Last week was Thanksgiving. This year has literally flown by. I cannot believe I've been married 7 months and counting!

i want to start making use of every moment...i want to stop wasting time.
may the Lord grant us grace to do His will!

am i closeminded?

i believe this is the first election ive actually had to think about. 4 yrs ago I was 19, didn't vote, and didn't care. before that i just agreed with whatever Trinity Baptist Church agreed with.now things are different. college, marriage, house buying, and challenges to my faith have influenced me to care..just a tad more. but now im realizing why i never wanted to in the first place. theres just way too much to think about.im too sinful to even really get into it, my anger and pride get in my way. it just seemed like everyone was so down because of the election. yes it was expressed that we know God is in control and He obviously has a plan, but it was as if evil had won and good was defeated.i held my tongue..and i found out johnny had too. im glad we both did. you see as i went through my day i realize that this may be a good thing, no not for our finances nor our health, and probably not for any baby in america...or anyone that works really hard.....BUT...it might just be a good thing for our pride. my prayer last night was that God would bless our enemys and those we disagree with. yet, it boils my blood when i actually see that happen. i just dont like the mentality that john mccain winning would have been a "christian" victory. john mccain is also a sinner. if christians, especially those of us who are "reformed" think that obama is any MORE sinful than mccain, we have it all wrong. obama is just another human that God chose to put here for someone unknown reason. we may not like it...but im just not sure any of us are in a place to judge. john mccains sins might not seem as hideous..but we know they are. he may not be leading people into sins as much as obama...but he still will lead incorrectly. which presidents have been godly leaders? the slave owners? lets check ourselves before we judge those we disagree with...

songs i could not have done without...

so i often just think up songs that have encouraged me or have caused me to think differently about something in my life. i thought i should write them down.



1. Caedmon's Call- Table for Two

2. Caedmon's Call- Faith my eyes

3. The Cross Movement- I AM that I AM

4. Seventh Star- Resistance to Resistance

5. Five Iron Frenzy- Every New Day

6. Bebo Norman- The Hammer Holds

7. Derek Webb- Wedding Dress

8. Derek Webb- Beloved

9. Tupac Shakur- That's just the way it is

10. Caedmon's Call- Prove me wrong

....and many more to come when they pop in my head....

seasons..

ive been wanting to start a new blog but haven't been motivated enough.
but the start of a new season always makes me start thinking a lot and spurs me to write about it.

i went to the mall the other night to find nicer work clothes for meetings and stuff. i ended up finding nothing except walking by bath and body works i smelt "FALL" and i couldnt resist.

i bought some lamp oil stuff that is called "autumn leaves" which i accidently told johnny it was called "leaves" in which he made fun of me because who wants to smell just leaves?
anyways...that and my pumpkin room spray on sale.

i got in my car and the weather was around 65 or something and i sprayed the pumpkin spray and then i looked and the sunset was perfect. it was one of those "take my breath" moments.

that moment has spurred me into a thought/writing spell. I keep having this nostalgic moments. some happy some that just make me cry. but no matter what the beginning of a new season is always awakening. there is something about the weather changin that gives you hope that maybe just maybe God is changing things, myself, for the good.

joy in Christ has been on the back burner for me. time is flying by for johnny and i. new house. new car..new responsibilities. growing up speeds my life up too much. i never did believe my parents or other adults who constantly reminded me .."life just keeps getting faster" but i do now.
the moments where you stop and realize the changes...the times where you feel engulfed in sin...only to find that the "valleys fill first," and God is changing you by His grace momentarily.

its these times i know God's creation waits eagerly groaning out. Even though the leaves/weather changes, all things will be new someday.
but ill enjoy fall for now.