my heart is an idol factory

well, its been a while..yet again.

in the past 2 weeks i've heard this calvin quote 2-3 times in sermons and at a wedding. now, I'm not one to matter-of-factly say that the reason I've heard this is because God has a point to make...but I'm open to that suggestion.

The human heart is a factory of idols...Everyone of us is, from his mother's womb, expert in inventing idols.” John Calvin

it helps that "everyone of us" has this heart...but when its you, personally that are experiencing the knowledge of this..well then ...its a bit more depressing.
For years I haven't had an issue with confessing I'm a deep sinner and have nothing good in an of myself to show. But the fact that I worship other created things instead of the Lord above still shakes me to my core.

Why on earth would I look to anyone/thing other than Christ alone for salvation..for peace...for happiness....for contentment...and for safety? because my flesh continues to seek for someone else other than Christ. It wants it to be someone...something else other than the true One.

My husband is my authority on this earth..The Lord works through Him..but he certainly is not the Lord. I realize that..in many ways...but I still look to him to satisfy longings that only Christ can satisfy...my emptiness...my sadness...my bitter anger and selfish lust.
No Idol can make this any lighter. the jealousy, gossip, and slander that pervade me through the days cannot be stopped by complaining to someone about it. it cannot help by holding it in...or by ignoring it with funny jokes or friendly competition.

no..in fact these things make it worse.

O my Lord, burn down these idols in my heart, take away my reliances on all these things that fail me each day and the things I find more appealing than Christ. May You be the only One Johnny and I worship, day in and day out. I must turn to you in the day of trouble...not to the created things I feel will help...

Lord...dissapoint us with everything except thine own self.