i realize i spend a lot of time reminiscing about memories- good and bad. and today's ease of typing blogs and viewing old entries makes it hard to escape feelings of the past. yesterday evening i spent some time reading my old livejournal, and old myspace comments. not sure what got me to do that..but my brain wandered to past things and i thought ..hmm this may be fun.
what i realized was the preposterous things i thought, felt and even said were embarrassing and sometimes even shameful. of course there is always some very fun/funny things such as comments from friends and from Johnny that are just classic. but the lame things i wrote about...the ignorance that pervaded much of my complaining is just sickening.
so what can i make of all that. today, when my spiritual hunger and thirst is not what it was once..I can have hope that God has been sanctifying me all this time...and its only by His Word and His people that this has happened. hurts, trials, tempatations and the like have only proved to draw me closer to Him and to purge the dross in my refining.
still its so funny to read how blatantly obvious some of my "secret" feelings about people were written about (good and bad) and how passively aggressive i handled situations. i'm thankful for my husband and for the realization of things i never thought would happen-as i so stated in much of my ramblings.
Lord, thank you for the past and what it can teach us...but thank you even more for the present and future so that we can continue to rely on Your words and Your providences to sustain us.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
baggage...
you know its a sad day when you can acquire more deep spiritual lessons from a tv show than from a christian song.
today, as i turned on the Christian music station, as i often do to hear a couple songs I like here and there, i was greeted by one of those "song in the background while the singer goes into detail about what the song is about," moments. i have no idea who the singer is or what the song is called...probably called baggage.
she went on and on about how the baggage we hold onto in our lives keeps us from truly knowing God and enjoying what He has given us and all we have to do is "let go of our baggage." this "just do it" mentally is really starting to urk me. (more on that later)
immediately my mind shifted to an episode of "how i met your mother," i viewed recently. You see this epidsode was also called, "baggage," except it was about looking for a mate and discovering that somewhere along the line you'll find the baggage they've been holding on to. at first it brings out weariness inside, claiming that everyone has baggage and it will always ruin the relationship so why even try. but towards the end Ted (star of the show) discovers that one of his new "prospects" isn't the only one with baggage, but he himself is the one holding on to it. The "baggage" shows up in physical form as suitcases next to each of them with writing on the sides describes what kind of messes they've found themselves in and how they are still burdened by those messes. Instead of them throwing these "bags" to the side they pick the other's up and continue walking together.
That's right. They don't walk away. They don't pretend to get rid of them, as if it is that easy. They instead "bare each others weight." of course the show ends with humor as the girl continues to go on as she is roommates with her brother and they sleep in the same bed and she ends up having slightly crazier "baggage" than he thought. But the principle is still evident.
I found more spiritual application from that show than from the lame description of "baggage" from this christian artist. I'm sure she meant no harm, but really what does "just let go of your baggage" even mean. I'm sick of hearing so called "christians" act like its just something you manage to get the energy and strength to do. in reality it looks more like "how I met your mother."
The "baggage" we carry is with us forever. We don't just let go and forget it, but we live with it. Spouses, family and friends help us by "picking up our suitcases" of luggage. This is how the burden is lifted, by allowing others to carry it for us, and accepting us despite the messiness of it all.
The main point being, Christ is truly the one who lifts up our baggage. He who carried it to the cross, who carries it now, and who will carry it to completion. The baggage we carry does not keep us from Christ, it drives us in despair to Him, the only one who can truly bare our burdens and give us true and complete joy.
Our baggage does not leave us. We are a mess. Thank God He is strong and can carry every ounce of it.
today, as i turned on the Christian music station, as i often do to hear a couple songs I like here and there, i was greeted by one of those "song in the background while the singer goes into detail about what the song is about," moments. i have no idea who the singer is or what the song is called...probably called baggage.
she went on and on about how the baggage we hold onto in our lives keeps us from truly knowing God and enjoying what He has given us and all we have to do is "let go of our baggage." this "just do it" mentally is really starting to urk me. (more on that later)
immediately my mind shifted to an episode of "how i met your mother," i viewed recently. You see this epidsode was also called, "baggage," except it was about looking for a mate and discovering that somewhere along the line you'll find the baggage they've been holding on to. at first it brings out weariness inside, claiming that everyone has baggage and it will always ruin the relationship so why even try. but towards the end Ted (star of the show) discovers that one of his new "prospects" isn't the only one with baggage, but he himself is the one holding on to it. The "baggage" shows up in physical form as suitcases next to each of them with writing on the sides describes what kind of messes they've found themselves in and how they are still burdened by those messes. Instead of them throwing these "bags" to the side they pick the other's up and continue walking together.
That's right. They don't walk away. They don't pretend to get rid of them, as if it is that easy. They instead "bare each others weight." of course the show ends with humor as the girl continues to go on as she is roommates with her brother and they sleep in the same bed and she ends up having slightly crazier "baggage" than he thought. But the principle is still evident.
I found more spiritual application from that show than from the lame description of "baggage" from this christian artist. I'm sure she meant no harm, but really what does "just let go of your baggage" even mean. I'm sick of hearing so called "christians" act like its just something you manage to get the energy and strength to do. in reality it looks more like "how I met your mother."
The "baggage" we carry is with us forever. We don't just let go and forget it, but we live with it. Spouses, family and friends help us by "picking up our suitcases" of luggage. This is how the burden is lifted, by allowing others to carry it for us, and accepting us despite the messiness of it all.
The main point being, Christ is truly the one who lifts up our baggage. He who carried it to the cross, who carries it now, and who will carry it to completion. The baggage we carry does not keep us from Christ, it drives us in despair to Him, the only one who can truly bare our burdens and give us true and complete joy.
Our baggage does not leave us. We are a mess. Thank God He is strong and can carry every ounce of it.
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